Humility

We get hurt by the smallest irrelevant things. Which in turn serves as a lesson to mankind about humility. As capable a man is, as strong as he can be, time and again, we have been reminded about this vulnerability by nature, by gods, and by time.

The young, vulnerable by his emotions, wishes seamless power and control. He wants what he can't have. Bound by his own vows, paralyzed by his own fears, he would still wish for things to happen, he believes in magic. Time teaches humility. time teaches to accept. Time teaches that you can't want.

Free man, as he is born, is a wonderful creature. He can achieve the impossible. But life is long. On the way, he is indebted by the favors he took. It takes an infinitesimal to ask for a favor but lifetimes to return a favor back.

Time as a concept, is a complex one. Various theories over centuries have tried to decipher it. Is it linear? Can we go into past, or future? are we reborn? do we live the same life again? Is there a parallel universe? Do we have a better life there?

Eisenstein, the genius of our times, put forward very complicated, but seemingly logical theories about time. His theories explain most of results of modern day physical experiments we can perform. But the extensions of his theories, those we are not capable of testing at the moment, sound as impossible as earth being round would to a cave man.

I like it. I fancy it. But I don't want it. Because once I have it, I don't know what to do with it. So I will let this one go. And probably it's the best. Because time has taught me... to be content with what I have. Others have taught me, never to ask but to earn. It is nice to have unconditional love, but it would be unfair to demand for it.

I shouldn't be selfish. Or perhaps I'm foolish. Or maybe plain dumb. Rather lazy. Or just a very well trained dog. Maybe I fake too well.
You shall never know.

- Modified 'Run run run' by Floyd
So i make my face up in
my favorite disguise.
With my button down lips and my
roller blind eyes.
With my empty smile
And my hungry heart.
Feel the bile rising from my guilty past.